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[Oct. 30th, 2009|10:42 pm] |
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sometimes i do things i know i shouldn't and they come bite me in the ass. like i know i shouldn't facebook stalk certain people and i know i shouldn't ask certain questions when talking to my ex, but i can't help it. and now i feel awful. |
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[May. 31st, 2009|12:13 pm] |
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Oh man, it's been forever since I actually had a genuine interest in someone. He actually keeps my interest!! Ugh, now I don't know what to do. I feel like I am in high school again. Maybe I should send him a note asking "do you like me? circle yes or no" |
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[Mar. 30th, 2009|08:34 pm] |
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so i might be a perfectionist and a control freak but wouldn't you rather have that kind of person teaching your child than someone who doesn't care enough to have high expectations of your child? when it comes to my job I am competitive and I feel like I have to show the other teachers that I am not a "first year teacher" that damn it, I am good. In the end this creates friction because I don't just suck it and and take it. I call people on their bullshit. That does NOT make me bitchy it means I know my boundaries and expect those to be respected. ugh....is their a professional school anywhere? |
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[Mar. 22nd, 2009|10:35 pm] |
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i am strongly considering taking a mental health day this week. |
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[Feb. 28th, 2009|12:00 pm] |
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sleep is the best thing ever. A vacation for me isn't about going somewhere, it's about relaxing, which means i have the best vacations at home in my bed sleeping. |
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[Feb. 18th, 2009|09:15 pm] |
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yummmyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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[Feb. 10th, 2009|05:55 pm] |
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so stressed out and i want to go shopping to release that stress ugh. |
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[Jan. 26th, 2009|09:53 pm] |
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sometimes i wonder if i could go through it all again and still come out the same. college, relationships, or just certain experiences in general. when did it become so complicated just to live the simple life? |
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[Jan. 11th, 2009|02:57 pm] |
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what does it mean "to be friends" really? does that mean i am not allowed to get annoyed or just want some time away from that person? i just want to call them on their bullshit. but i know if i do that than it won't be the same. but really? can i let them go through the rest of their life thinking that it's ok? i sometimes just want to be say "you are the most judgmental person ever. you look out for yourself and that's fine, but don't alienate others because of your insecurity." lately i have just had urges to scream and confront them and for once not be accommodating. i've always made friends easily, but now i am starting to wonder if they are really friends or just obligations. i am always in the middle and trying to please both sides. i need time to myself but don't like feeling alone. |
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[Jan. 2nd, 2009|06:38 pm] |
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So I tried joining a gym with the idea that I would go work out instead of shopping. Except the gym is right next to the mall. I didn't foresee this as a problem. It's just so easy to swing into the mall on my way to or from the gym. Now somehow my bank account is in a sad state. I think I have spent about 250.00 at Victoria Secret, which is ridiculous considering I have no one to wear it for now. And, I decided Fredrick's bras fit better and were cheaper. When I started working at The Limited, I only owed 50 on my Limited card, now I owe 400 again. I don't even want to look at my Visa card. Time for me to cut back and save. I don't need anything more. No more clothes, shoes, bags, booze, music or gadgets. Ok one more gadget, ipod shuffle. Then no more. I am putting myself on a strict money diet. Only 100 dollars a week. This means taking advantage of parents again. Books and and ipod shuffle is all I am allowed to spend money on now. I am going to the gym. |
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[Dec. 23rd, 2008|10:52 pm] |
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Christmas eve use to be my favorite because i spent it with basel's family. we made gingerbread houses, had the big holiday party, and we cuddled in front of a fire place and all was sweet. plus his mom got me the best christmas presents EVER!!! and honestly i thought that around this time i would be getting engaged. however the complete opposite has happened. it's ok though, because i found i have good friends and who needs the drama? |
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[Dec. 11th, 2008|07:06 pm] |
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my phone is broken so I can't make or receive calls. it's kinda nice not having anyone calling me or constantly feel guilty when i dont pick up or return a call. granted i feel a little disconnected, but anyone important can get a hold of me somehow....just no one die just in case, ok? |
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[Dec. 7th, 2008|11:05 pm] |
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i am missing something and i can't figure out what it is. oh wait yes i can. i need to do something except the gym is closed this late and i don't have any money to go shopping. i think dave has the right idea, i need to start running marathons, smoking, or get laid. Any three are acceptable right now. |
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[Nov. 23rd, 2008|07:30 pm] |
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i dont know what to do with myself anymore.... |
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[Nov. 9th, 2008|04:07 pm] |
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god it all hurts. and so it's official because i had the official big cry. i am joining a gym. i think it will be more productive with this than shopping. |
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[Nov. 4th, 2008|10:45 pm] |
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i am sad. i need something. |
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[Nov. 2nd, 2008|09:51 am] |
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i've been sick for the last 2 weeks and cannot get better. do you know how much it sucks constantly having boogers and snot running down your face and blowing our nose and having your head hurt? |
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[Nov. 1st, 2008|10:59 pm] |
how did we go from "i love you. always and forever" to nothing at all? god i miss him.
shopping cures all. i heart shoes and nice smelly stuff. |
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[Oct. 29th, 2008|10:43 pm] |
how am i suppose to be in a relationship when my gimpy (literally) boyfriend won't call me? oh that's right, i can't. so i am going to go pick up my stuff tomorrow. let's see what happens.
i slept from 6:00 to 10:00 when steph woke me up to feed me. and now i am going to shower and go back to sleep. yeah i am that good. |
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[Oct. 22nd, 2008|05:25 pm] |
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i got sick from one of the kids. ick. my kids are ridiculous. They are all very attention needy. So one decides that he is going to try to run for attention. He races to the door, I intercept him with just my arm, he then starts screaming"no" and "let me go" I am just standing there. I look towards my aid and say "I'm not even holding him; he's holding on to me." At that point he immediately lets go and pouts. I laugh. I love my class. |
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